A Look Into the Past, Present + Future
Songbird, rebirth, unearth creature
Submerge from hurt, pain, broken pieces
Emergency, heartbeat increases
Rise up lotus, rise, this is the beginning
For those of you who have been following my story, let me just say THANK YOU – for all of the love, support, and help that each of you have given me throughout what was the hardest year of my life. Without you, I may not have achieved all that I have today, so my heart swells with gratitude for your amazing presence in my life!
For those of you who haven’t heard my story yet, let’s just say that it’s been a rough ride: recovering from an abusive relationship with the father of my children (the bunnies), endless court battles for custody + protection, and struggling to get back on my feet + feeling right in my heart & head after everything that happened.
I finally feel like the worst is behind me now, and for the first time in years, I am optimistic about the future.
That feels so good.
Since you last heard from me, there have been so many wonderful changes and developments! Bliss is an experience I am privy to DAILY.
The bunnies are growing (and growing FAST) into awesome little people who make me smile everyday, test my patience everyday, and teach me more everyday, too. Bunny Boy will be three years old this summer and Bunny Girl is moving towards two years at full speed. I on the other hand, feel younger, more awake + alive NOW (at 36 yrs) than I ever have in my entire life…
The light has finally returned in my life. I have to give the credit almost entirely to the constant uplifting support of X, the Love that I have been waiting for my entire life.
My partner and perfect other.
I have fallen in love with him so completely.
X is kind, mindful, open, loving + so much more. His patience with me + the bunnies is exemplary. Plus, he’s totally athletic and gorgeous! (I seriously hit the life-mate jackpot with this guy!!) And, most importantly, he truly loves us. With full + wild abandon, he loves us.
I trust him completely and know that what we have will never waiver. Our love feels ancient to me. Like we are just picking up where we left off in the last lifetime… as though we were always meant for each other. I mean, planets literally aligned when we got together.
He came softly into my life and my heart recognized him immediately.
When I think of everything that X has given me, I am overwhelmed with ecstatic joy and hopelessly deep gratitude for his presence in my life. His gifts are many and meaningful, but just to name a few that have made a significant difference in my life:
1) TIME – he’s given me space, time alone, room to grow and be with myself or others. At least two nights/week, I am free to do as I wish, bunny free!
2) PERSPECTIVE – X is a very thoughtful man and is comfortable sharing his thoughts, especially with me. His thoughts about the world, life, people, and dealing with problems inspires me to take a closer look at my own thoughts and actions. But, he also allows me the freedom and space to have my own ideas without feeling the need to change them.
3) PATIENCE – I believe this may be one of X’s most prominent virtues. He exhibits patience like a motha’! (For real, tho.) Like no one I’ve ever known before. It’s stunningly beautiful in its simplicity.
These gifts, plus the many, MANY others that X showers me with have given me the space and time to heal. To grow. To find my way not only back onto my feet, but walking (even running) my path again.
And so the lotus rises
At this point in my life, I am overflowing with inspiration, creativity, and the urge to make something amazing. Something impactful. Something wonderful.
I have been spending countless hours creating, working, brainstorming + looking within for answers to questions I still have inside of me. The burning ones that come to the surface often. For me they are related to my purpose, the connections I’ve made + the ones yet to be made, the gifts I have to share with others + the lessons I have yet to learn… everyday, these answers are becoming more and more clear to me.
The vision is coming together and I am merely the instrument that is the modality for the infinite moving through my practices.
I am so excited to have the chance to follow my BLISS.
And I simply can’t wait to show you what’s coming up next!
So, from this point going forward, the blog will have a new purpose and meaning for me. I am leaving the past behind and moving forward into the unknown with a smile on my face and joy in my heart.
Namaste, blissful souls 🌟